Realization

July 2008

Realization

Realization
what are Your thoughts for me?

Purple
under my skin are tell-tale signs
of bleeding
Bruised
by the thoughts, words, and actions
of a dearly loved child - but
am I not still a beggar?

Quiet
pondering the extravagant love
that my heart aches for

I will stop hesitating
Here I come
to be made perfect,
whole
Realization of love

Realization was the first drawing I did while I was down at Bethel School of Supernatural Worship in California. I drew it in my apartment after school had ended on the first day. Less than a week before I had been up writing papers and studying for final exams with minimal sleep, and I was astounded that God would come and speak to me powerfully on the first day even though I had paid little attention to Him in the months before. I was just starting to realize how much He loved me and what He was planning to do in my life while I was in California. Translated, the words on the drawing say "I am happy because Jesus is my Savior." This is what I was holding onto.